A letter to My sweet elder Bro

My Dear Little Bro,

Just want to re-call those happy days,..

My dear little Big B, you are a gift to our parents especially when you were born after 5 long years. Mom also shared with me the secret of my birth. When she was carrying the second time, you used to pray to God saying "Oh! God Hanuman, please give me thambi papa to play with", finally your desire came true. After a gap of six+ years from your b’day, I was born as the second kid to our parents. From that time onwards, you treat me as a Gift from God... You enjoyed each and every moment, when I stood on my feet, when I put forward my first step, when I laughed and so on…. When I was born at Delhi, our grandma (Dad’s Mom) came there to look after me. In those days, I was a left hand'r - may be due to the impact of my birth place :). Mom and Grandma tried pretty hard to change my nottan-kai(left hand) usage as most of our relatives would complain if noticed. You were the only one who helped me get rid of all their traps such as rolling up my left-arm with towel and so forth. All because you just loved me so much that you didn't want me to get disturbed for any reason and let me be myself. Even I don't remember those days in my memory; I had heard quite few from Mom and Grandma. They always tell me more and more stories about my child hood days. In all those stories, you stood tall as my real hero Anna.

I can recollect memories starting from my school days...everything seem so fresh……. We both studied in the same TANCEM school till my 3rd standard. In those days, you wouldn’t take me on your bicycle - I felt really bad those days. But later-on I came to know that you would have done it intentionally to make me travel along with my age gang. Because, in that age every one tends to inherit characters from friends around & you didn’t want me notice (or) practice 10th standard guys behaviors and habits. Later on at each stage as I grew, I keenly learnt a lot from you.

You taught me how to read and mug-up poems, how to read longer words like re-mem-ber. Where to pause,where to stress. You were my Guru in my school days. So many days you helped me complete my home work, but I can never remember on occasion where you did my home-work, you always make me understand and helped me to cross the struggles in day to day life.

You were studying in your 12th standard, I was in 6th Standard @ RJPM. We both along with your friends went to Meera movie at Mahalakhsmi theater. I think that is the first movie we both went to theater. Mostly we used to go to open air movie at play grounds of Government school at Alangulam.

Not restricted to only education, you taught me cycling. Still remember those days when I was afraid to learn cycle. You gave me the confidence and energy to drive. Even you taught me driving our Dads TVS-50 during my 7th Standard.

Then when you entered college, I was studying 8th standard. You taught me 'What is Aids? How it spreads?' and all other related facts. I’m the only gifted person to know these things from bro rather by getting half baked information from friends. Also, you taught me things on need basis and you were fully aware 'At what age, your younger bro should know which thing' and you made sure you delivered them too. You taught me sightseeing :). Those days when I travel to alangulam mukku-road bus stand to drop you to Kovilpatti bus leads to your college. We used to look @ gals in SRLT buses and pass couple of comments, which is again very commendable. My eyes are getting wet by thinking about those good-old-memories Bro.

You checked upon me even during our tough times, though you too required consolation equally...

On the day 16-12-95, when we lost our lovable Dad. Every thing was looking dark to me. I didn’t know what to do and was not so matured at that time since I was studying only 9th standard @ PACM, Rajapalayam. You had just completed your 3rd semester exams @ NEC, KVP. But you took every thing in your shoulder and never made me and mom to know the burden that you were carrying. You made us comfortable by running into troubles all by yourself so that we were at bay. Hats-Off Anna, I love you. Also, you were the happiest person in the globe when I scored good marks at my 10th standard board exams.

Even though you didn’t like the TANCEM job, you took it up to run our family comfortably. I know how bad you felt after getting into a Govt company, where any one seldom has the passion to work, lots of internal politics and all. Still, I remember you getting an award for work excellence. You stood unique and tall, even working in Alangulam TANCEM.

When I was studying 11th Std, you gave me R.S.Aggarwal Logical Reasoning and so many other books to solve puzzles. It helped me in my job pursuit after my college days. I never went down in fresher’s written tests, I got my Job @ Adventnet by solving lots of puzzles, that stands proof that the smallest of gesture you have made adds immense value. You gave me every thing that I need well in advance. Your thought process for laying a road ahead for me to travel was at least five years in advance. I couldn't ever perceive this at that time.

When I finished my Schooling, you helped me to choose the BE-ECE course. I remember the very first day, when we are into our college for paying my hostel fees. To my knowledge, that is the only day you were into to my college. Till my last day, you want me to take care of myself, which I did successfully. After all whose Bro am I? Most happiest moments and treasured memories are my College days. College trips, secretary post, my stay @ Srivi, Krishnankovil, hostel...

In my final year, you got engaged with Anni Malar. Those days were comedy days, since you felt so shy on those days to look at her or talk to her. Malar used to call me at my hostel and we both used to laugh by cracking jokes on you and your shyness. She is a great asset to you, our family and lives.

U know one thing, I excelled in my college days with my organizing skills, which I cultivated by organizing your Marriage @ RJPM. I have designed the invitation, booked Marriage hall, food, photographer, managed distributing Rooms to relatives and friends, etc. It was a great experience for me at 22Years, 'coz handling relatives is always a cool and tuff job! I can see you agree too!

As I said, you never made me to mingle with your friends, earlier. But for the first time, when i came to chennai for Job hunt you made me to stay with your friends @ kodambakkam. You did it deliberately to make me learn how the corporate world will be and what is a Job?

I learned so many things from your friends like Murugesh, Kanagaraj, Seeni, Sivaram, Arun, etc. The learning helped me immensely when I joined for my Job @ AdventNet. Even during my Job hunt period, you worked as a recharging unit for me to rejuvenate me, since I would get down when ever I failed in any interview.

Anna, I have inherited lots of habits right from food habit from you. There are thousands of moments in which I admired you. Lots & lots of lovable moments which i don’t want to pen down here. Miss you a lot theses days, especially when you are physically staying apart, in the other side of the globe New Jersey - US.

Now you have become father to a baby girl Viswathika. Sweet little, Angel of our house :). Now you have a great Job in front of you back from square One. Vishnu is there to admire, inherit & love you. Get energized to look after her and bring her up as a great kid in this society. All the best my dear dude :)

You are my real life Hero - Rajesh Subbaiah

Best Regards,
evr urs,
Suppa S